"And So It Ends, It’s Time To Let Go"

Christmas has been and gone, and although it was a quiet affair it was lovely. It was just Andy and I so there were no expectations or too much family. Just us, good food, the seasonal Matrix Trilogy and a fuck tonne of presents.

I am so grateful for all the gifts I got this year. First off, there was a bread maker from my Sister in law, I have already made bread in it and it was delicious! Although my slicing technique certainly requires practice. I received a freestanding mixer, which is something I've wanted for a few years now (Bake Off's fault!) so I'm going to have to break that out soon! Other things I've received include Portal the Board Game, Nimona Graphic Novel, Thor: Goddess of Thunder, a hobby organiser case, DruidCraft Tarot (I've been after this for years), a beautiful Labradorite and Moonstone Pentagram necklace and earrings, Earth, Air, Fire & Water by Scott Cunningham (a follow up to Earth Power I still have to finish...) and a beautiful Steampunk necklace on a heart of lava!

Finally, two days at Alton Towers complete with two nights in a beautiful lodge in their "Enchanted Village" I'm excited! But I have to wait until April, but I think I can cope :)

There are three days left of 2015, and despite the good that came from it, I will be almost glad to see the back of it. Although lots of good came out of it, lots of weddings, Husband and I finally owning our own house, it was a bit naff too.

I've spoken about my anxiety in the past and this year it's come back at times to totally kick my arse. I've not achieved as much as I'd have liked. For example, I am, currently, not even reaching reading 30 books on Goodreads. I'm not even sure a lot of those count really as they are short stories instead of books. I haven't done anything with jewellery really, I've made some as gifts but then it's been put away in the corner. I've lost weight and then I've pretty much gained it all again. I've not done as much exercise, I had started Couch to 5k but my foot hurt so I stopped. I never started again. I haven't gone to any pagan events, I haven't seen a large chunk of my friends, I haven't really been anywhere.

I want all that to change next year, I want shit to get done.

Now as you know, I'm doing my 100 goals for 2016. I've just finished number 50, so I shall present to you my goals from 30 - 50

30. Start a savings account (I am capable of saving, so instead of getting excited about having money and spending it all, it's going into an account for future use/projects/holidays

31. Take better care of myself (Basic things, showering every day, not just when I feel like it, developing a skincare routine, making sure I give myself the time I need for these things!)
32. Go on a Rollercoater at Alton Towers that scares me (which would be about 99.9% of them(
33. Be more thrifty
34. Write poetry (Channel my inner emo Kylo Ren)
35. Do at least one interesting thing a month (like visiting a museum or going somewhere new or trying something new!)
36. Get a tattoo (Something I've been thinking about a lot recently)
37. Do more painting - discover my style (If I have one)
38. Try Watercolours again (I failed in these attempts in the past)
39. Do yoga (I have found a video series on youtube I am going to start doing soon!)
40. Crystal Database Project (This is something I started about 2 years ago, the more crystals I collect the more difficult it's getting!)
41. Say yes to something I wouldn't usually do (within reasons...)
42. Spend a weekend without my laptop or phone. (I'm sure it's possible...I will read, do art, make jewellery and probably fall asleep)
43. Surprise someone with an unexpected gift (why should all my goals be about making me happy?)
44. Buy more art (I want art by Julia Jeffery, Laura Daligan and more by Linda Ravenscroft!)
45. Complete a colouring book (wish me luck)
46. Paint my nails (I do not honestly remember the last time I actually did my nails. At least a year ago, if not longer)
47. Don't buy anything for a month (so somethings are allowed, food for example and I am going to be starting a subscription service I'm allowing myself that. And if I have Amazon vouchers, that's allowed but no money!)
48. Try new things in my favourite restaurants/takeouts (I always have a Balti with Mushroom and Spinach from the Indian and Chicken and Mushroom from the Chinese...there are other things on the menu Jenny!)
49. Make a wedding photo book (I have done ziltch with our wedding photos, that needs to change).
50. Wear more colour! (It's been creeping back into my wardrobe but I would like to get rid of 99.9% of the black!

So I'm half way through, which is pretty good to be honest. 50 more to come up with though which is a little scary but I'm sure we'll get there. There is a big one I'm avoiding putting on my list and avoiding thinking about but 2016 might be the time for it, but we'll see. Progress on that one later I think :)

If I don't see or speak to you before, have a wicked New Year. I will be posting here every two weeks (as agreed in Goal #19) and I promise I will!

2016 is going to be a blast!